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Embarrasment, more of inner thoughts

2010-07-12T12:47:00.000-07:00

i looked back at my chat history on skype n i realise i've been so lousy n yet so full of myself.
i thought it did, but tt fall didnt got me changed. she, on the other hand, has been too forgiving.
OMFG NOW I FEEL SO EMBARRASSING

2010-04-18T21:29:00.000-07:00

trust me, im really not tt emo kind of person, but this morning it got me, pretty hard.
i dont like to believe in things n end up it turn out otherwise.
"the right person at the wrong timing" eh?
no, its not like i've been dwelling on it for 123456789 years still.
ironically, u're the best i ever i had, n it'll be dumbfark if it turn out otherwise.

okay, now i think im stupid -.-

2010-04-12T13:46:00.000-07:00

er hi!

photos from louis cant be anymore lousier.

I nearly had 2 million sgd

2010-04-07T08:49:00.000-07:00

just recently, i received a sms all the way from oversea (they clamied tt they are from UK), congratulating me for being selected in their TOP-UP-WIN-PROMOTION, a prize of NINE HUNDREDS AND TWENTY-FIVE THOUSANDS POUNDS.

like wad normally u guys will do, "ahh! fuck off."
yes, exactly wad i did -.-

few days later i recieved a email from their company. HA-HA!

(click to enlarge)

like, was really wondering, u guys know my email? ah craps.
they have their addresses, contact (even fax number -.-) n everything u can think of listed out.

its convincing, seriously.

for u guys to hear it from me, it'll be easy on u guys to reject it.

well, think, if u were to be approached personally? haha. not an easy task, especially they're this convincing, wit all the certificates n documentations. (scroll down for more)

i was thinking, it wouldnt hurt if i try replying them right. like, who wouldnt!?

next, they sent me a certificate proving tt i won their promotion which i had did nothing to deserve it. *looking at it in awe

try converting them. its nine hundred thousand pounds, which means two million sgd!!

trust me, i was still being cautions, just tt amount of money makes me went day-dreaming -__-"

"lai, aaron, u wan buy bike right!? AKU BUY FOR U"

"bp, wan bike arh? ahh, CALL AKU KORKOR FIRST"

muahahahaha!!!

still, it's not reality :(

they sent me emails, asking me to go over n pick up my prize.

LIKE, AAARRRLLOOOWW! U GUYS HAVE MY EMAIL, PHONE NUMBER N U GUYS HAVE NO IDEA IM IN SIGAPOREEEEEEE!?!??

ahhh! crap.

it's kind of expected, they requested a transfer fee of 900 pounds from me. a transfering certificate from the bank, tts what they said. so they can transfer my winning to my account. (fair enough, tts reasonable)

ya right..

up to this point of time, i couldnt take it n shoot them off in theire face.

-firstly, IF THEIR COMPANY ARE WILLING TO GIVE AWAY SUCH AMOUNT OF MONEY, WHY ARE THEY NOT FOUND IN THE NET. (i googled them earlier on, just the amount of money was really tempting)

-secondly, I REQUEST FOR MORE SOLID PROOF TT COULD CONVINCE ME, THEY "LAN LAN"!

-thirdly, ALL THIS FUCKING BULLSHIT JUST DOESNT MAKE SENSE! I HAD TWO MILLIONS SGD BY DOING NOTHING!? MUAHAHAHA! thanks.

and since they need that certificate of transfer from the bank, tell me since i won my 2millions, cant i just deduct from my winning? ha! gotcha!

anyway, they've asked me to go western union n make the transfer, agent name, Stella Luralph.

i went to western union's site, n search for the agent (hoping there's one) BUT, invalid agent name.

look, they even sent me the transfer form *rolleyes*

btw, upon receiving this, i received a call from them.

i try being polite, but this admin guy's just so rude. R-U-D-E.

yea, so much for a 2 millions company which couldnt be found in the net -.-

even if they are really offering 2 millions, given me tt attitude of his, ahh com'on i don need it.

if im buay song, i don even give a shit abt the money, i dont even earned them to even begin wit.

i asked, since u guys need the transfering certificate from the bank, may i know which bank?

booooooooooooooooooo! invalid. nabreyyyyyy.

yea. im pissed. they make me went day-dreaming abt my 2millions!

im calling the cops.

BKK TRIP UPDATE

2010-03-25T07:41:00.000-07:00

there's a total of 430 photos taken. we didnt managed to take all tt we've been.

busy playing.

over there, in bkk, the only thing we did was shop, eat(yesh, alot), n massage. (n drink of cause, it's not listed out cause its only normal to do so.)

n no way im going to blog everything out n posts all the pictures, i dont have such stamina.

so it's a summarised version. very summarised.

a picturey post, wit little words.

Back into motel room, where the only place in town is really bored. the only few entertainments? MYLAPPY, liquor, n of cause POKECARDS.

REALLY HOT. no joke.

Shopping

(which we didnt end up buying anything in both siam centre n paragon)

N YESH! FOOD! there's actually lots of road-side stalls in the alley

instead we'd choosen this, the CABBAGE N CONDOMS RESTAURANT.

n for a location in the back alley where all the roadside stalls are, its pretty darn amazing tt how we can locate it just by looking at the map. (credit to uncle actually)

like, hello no ppl can actually find this place in the "wild". yes, W-I-L-D.

plus, this place's amazing, with all the condoms n stuffs.

can u actually figure it out? its made of condoms, plenty of them.

i like this "OUR FOOD IS GUARANTEED NOT TO CAUSE PREGNANCY"

call the blue condom. pretty sweet.

okay, i shall skipped all the discription for the food, except for the RICE. (probably u ppl are wondering WHY RICE? ha!)

ahh! there u go. they are call the sticky rice. s-t-i-ck-y, literally.

this's how u eat it. cause it's so sticky, anything tt's light-weight enough will stick on to it.

n u eat it like this.

but if u eat it the usual way like how u eat rice in singapore, it taste disgusting.

or the alternate way, cabbage wrapped with sticky rice fillings.

know wad, this retaurant are actually meant for charity. kids tt cant afford schooling.

they contributed some of their profits for the schools n kids, n also they have this wishing well there, but its for donation actually.

n now, some picture in the night.

empty, unlike in singapore.

we went to this pub by the name of retro bar (think so)

n we were dying for a ktv one, cause every pub they had are all playing hard metal, rock. alrighty, at least these are wad we managed to find.

n finally, there's a VIP room in retro bar n we found out tt there's ktv system, we went in.

one big room all by ourselves :)

just, think we might as well had lessons on thai song instead. blarrrrrrr..

it's the summer kiss n for the one below, sex @retro

just, its a petty that they only serve johnny walker.

right, judge the photo well. louis being louis had his signature-self-comfort posture, n his facial expression looks like tt its only right to do it.

stupidboy, literally, on the left, imitates -.-

facial expression : uncomfortable.

stupidboy 2nd facial expression : still, is uncomfortable.

HE SANG! WTF #!$%#!

THE PROTESTER! the stupidboy dreaming of having them sniped -.-

we went to the night market, where everything tt's selling dere can be bargain.

to imagine, i had bargained a 750baht cool stuff to 400baht! seeeeeee....

nv fail for icecreams.

n again, tt stupidboy brought a very typical icecream, something with banana spit. so, NABREEEYYY! NO ICECREAM SHOT FOR U.

louis's facial expression : super uncomfortable (to imagine taking picture wit the stupid one)

i must say something for the waitress, SHE'S DARN HOT!

n the following picture are gonna be food, food n FOOD.

it's taken on the last day, since we had all bkk local foods for all days, we decided to go for something different on the last day.

like she says, HAGAO IS DOPE! ;)

n this is da sex! salmon sashimi, nv fail to eat in a japanese restaurant.

on the friday morning when we were having our last meal in bkk, we decided to have a filling one (way too filling)

n as u can see, bp's eating his favorite thai style prawn fried rice happily, yet stupidly too.

the portion's big, n he finished all three courses!

fug. louis, surprisingly, ate a little. maybe he thinks tt he should cut down on food, idk.

M-A-D S-H-I-O-K-N-E-S-S!

2010-03-24T07:35:00.000-07:00

right. lappy having difficulties accessing to the net.
but i have loads of photo from bkk.
partly, im lazy la.

guys, stay tune. lol.

Think i had earned a respect.

2010-03-03T10:38:00.000-08:00

once, someone had said, just drop it n let it go.

though im still ranting here, i dont think im weak inside.

stayed out of someone's life cause it's only right to do so, even if u feels unbearable, i think u still earned a respect. lets see, am doing great. things tt we did, dont lie.

11 more days, n off, off, offffffffffffffff i go!
am just praying tt i dont get hijacked. lol.
or u guys are so going to celebrate tt im dead........... erm true tt true tt.

R-A-N-D-O-M-S

2010-02-16T08:55:00.000-08:00

we've been so far. i only had two of them.

chinese new year is a bored pratice, i swear. reunion dinner was different. not much gambling, not much fun n not much red packets.

boat quey's B-O-R-I-N-G. neither am i keen in any clubbing session.

i have my home. i dont wanna be out every night.
i stayed in for today. closed the door n hibernate. lol.
now im charged.

okay. im glued.

soon, im gonna get xeron from wendy n walk her for the whole day.

i have no pictures for cny.

i love to look at the sky recently n i find it a comfort.

2010-01-30T22:08:00.000-08:00

know what's the secret of being happy?
keep it in mind tt good times, good old days didnt died off without u.
its inside. inside u. u had them, n be glad. lesson number 3.

im contented. good old days with buds, with wendy n even with tt ' someone whom i had one month of sweetness with '.

i wouldnt call them memories if i were u. kay, maybe for me at least.
memories is something tt u will be missing badly, n tt something tt u'd been missing is because u had lost them.

it all gonna be my lessons, my process in growing up.
what yours anyway.

2010-01-28T21:30:00.000-08:00

i have a lazy eye. dang.
righty's visually sharper n lefty's getting useless.

erm kay. make a guess, which one's lazy.

2010-01-28T09:16:00.000-08:00

kay. photos here.
simple, lepak in haji :))

im going to be busy for next 2 weeks. mother.

but i'll be available if dere's fun. ha!

2010-01-25T08:41:00.000-08:00

Lesson Number 2: Get some suvival instincts and dont whine about the unfairness.

say, u're not the only unfortunate one.

get it done n over with

"am grateful when people help out my dad."

2010-01-24T09:05:00.000-08:00

this war is gonna be difficult.

beat it.

2010-01-19T08:21:00.000-08:00

i have a story to share.

nate had his first love at the age of 19. being extremely naive, he had always tot his relationship with jamie would work out, n fyi, they were the best friend ever before everything could get started. just like other grown up couples, they intimate, sweet talk, do coaxing stuffs n things were getting so good to be true. Nate doted jamie like his everything and vice versa, jamie's being extremely sweet. seldom, they quarrel or even if they do, jamie would alway gain victories with the best reasoning n nate himself, is also a expert in gaving in. Still, both had a promise in committing. ( no matter what happen, they're still very important to each other)

Those good time died off early, who would expect that regardless how much they know each other before hand, the relationship still end up a failure. jamie initiated the broke up after a month and nate was devastated. However, things continue going between them and despite any official status, jamie was still saying "i love you". n Of cause, nate had always see this as a promise. like, who wouldnt? even though jamie didnt say it out herself, nate could tell how much jamie wanted him but yet not ready for commitment. she didnt realise how crude she was to nate when she expect him to have zero expectation from her, yet she want him only for herself.

very soon, jamie started drifting away. she became very secretive, and started to hide things aways from nate. Nate soon suspected that she had a boyfriend, and had takes no responsibility in her oath. and because nate have his pride, he made jamie promised him that whoever guy she was going to end up with, he want her to be truthful. He was already mentally prepared to swallow everything, just he doesnt want to be a tard. Jamie agreed.

and weeks after, jamie continues. Without knowing tt nate had already knew the fact that she's attached, she denied everythings and kept in silence. This time, Nate swallowed his own self pro-claimed, his god damm "farking-strong-pride". obviously, she had shows no confidents in nate and all she did was to save him from leaving her life (or maybe just have no idea how to face nate, idk) . Nate had always been equally important to her no matter what.

jamie broke up with her mysterious boy, and soon got another new boyfriend. Finally, it was announced. Things started turning sour between nate and her, they quarrelled numerous times and finally, jamie told Nate off that she realised she have never love him! Nate had almost feel like dying upon hearing those words, n to futher add on, jamie told nate to let it go since it was already history. Finally, Nate had got enough of being mentally tortured and soon left jamie. jamie's heart sank. He hurt her with crude words, n thinking only to protect himself this time.

Jamie gave up her pride n went asking Nate back. Nate rejected, and because he left her, he recieved tons of scolding saying how selfish he was ( of cause jamie wasnt aware that nate knew she had been lying to him from the start ), but still, like jamie, nate was equally devastated. He couldnt get back to jamie, because if he does, the thought of jamie's biggest lie and all those selfish acts would be haunting him all nights instead. He had no longer the courage to face her.
He hurt her repeatedly, just to get himself safe and slowly the thought of protecting jamie for life slowly vanished in his mind.

Months after, Nate moved on and no longer long for jamie's love. He grew to be more independent and stronger yet, with all the strength he needs, he start regretting. He began to miss all that sense of familiarties, he wants jamie back as a friend. Jamie replied " im not gonna be there and ask for more hurt anymore".
Nate was totally defeated.
even till the end of the story, jamie was still not aware of Nate reasons of leaving.
n that biggest lie? no one knows.

The end..

muahahaha!!!!
kay. now, tell me. what's right? what's justice?
and what does it tells u?
they may were important to each other, but nevertheless, their bonds are fragile. LOL.

btw, should there be a price for saying i love you when u'e not even prepared for those words?
erm, maybe that was some casual remarks ppl make -____-"

gawdd!!
人就是犯贱！！

nah. im joking.

2010-01-19T01:24:00.000-08:00

firstly, siming have joined the group " we had so much quarrels and conflicts at the later part, tt i can actually forgot we used to have so much good time ".
joined upon seeing all the conversation under history in a farking familiar lappy.

secondly, siming have also joined the group " just so u know, even when things are this messed up, i still smile to myself whenever i think of the things we have done"
joined in a drunkard state.

p/s. non-applicable in fb.

2010-01-16T23:31:00.000-08:00

Remember i said abt healthy weekends?
It was the saturday night, n i was at bedok jetty :)

and say ARLLOW to the mutated fishy! sashimi anyone? lol.

BOO! buai~

2010-01-14T07:49:00.000-08:00

errrrrrrrrrrrr.............................

cause i have no photo, i shall steal some from yy's fb. totally unawared of these since she didnt tag us.

"so we roam the town for zapato size 7"

its been long.

2010-01-13T06:21:00.000-08:00

May i have your attention pls. On the 10th of feb there will be no more jailed teeth.
i repeat, there will be no more jailed teeth.

okay. im cool now.

2010-01-11T11:14:00.000-08:00

im dead beat.
n i need my eyemore :(

both, in the oct. seriously, such similarities. tsk tsk.

EYEMOREEEEEEEEEeeeeeeeee!!!

kay. nvm. im dying..

2010-01-10T18:53:00.000-08:00

It was a typical sunday meet up yesterday.
things have been going on like this for the past 2yrs wit me, always a late :D
CHILL LA NA BREY!!!!!! ching ching!
lol.

okay. today i shall not be doing side track. let see what i have here.
.
.
.

First take: we have had no ppl smiling, making me look like an idiot in doing the pout thingy.

the second one, im again lacking in chemistry. i look like a total idiot.

n yea. finally. but still im abit exaggerating.

mother...

sunday has always been conforting yet, it nv fail to remind me tt monday's here again.

meaning, school.

n dang. kim can really imitate da lung! tt farked up face

2010-01-10T01:16:00.000-08:00

i swear tt next weekend is going to be healthy. ha!

2010-01-05T20:26:00.000-08:00

i was at tanglin Police Division this morning..
didnt attend school, n was talking to Daxiong.

im 21 this year. many said, time seems especially fast when u are 21 or 22.
just, a blink n u are at 25 already, n 30 at the later part.

but i think, i should enjoy my 21 instead, though i admit tt things must be handled more seriously. i will, i think.

u know, im already so short of my remaining youth and yet, National service is coming. damm damm.

btw, a minute ago, sihan called, checking out on me. yea, the only one who called if u guys were to ask.

2010-01-01T10:27:00.000-08:00

it's the first of january today.
okay. couldnt quite believe tt one yr had just passed like this.

very unbelievable. nb.

like, where was i in the 2008 31th Dec!?!?! like, OMFG so fast already meh!?!?

okay, shit.

gotta admit tt 2009 was the best.

most happening, most sweet, most memorable, most tiring n the most unexpected.

yesh, learnt the most too. am really greatful to ppl who's involve in my 2009.

tt moment when ppl were shouting, doing count down, i felt excitments n also was reminded.

im excited about the uncertainties n was reminded about starting new, not literally starting new though.

just, its like " 2009 is already over dey! fark, siming u better dont sleep again! " lol.

idk, maybe im really poor in expressing, just, my thoughts at that moment during the countdown, was so indescribable. mother -.-

tada~

and , guess whos back? back again.. January's back. tell a friend.

guess whos back. guess who back.. guess whos back......

muahahaha!

2009-12-29T11:25:00.000-08:00

i've no idea. where are u? are u back yet.

this is so not cool..

2009-12-28T06:51:00.000-08:00

sometimes, 'A' will accidentally ask " why is your hair so long "
accidentally -.-
we shouldnt be..

n fark. i miss 'B', like seriously.
and i shouldnt be..

actually thought lady luck was by my side, after 'A'
man.. it was tt close.

2009-12-27T08:55:00.000-08:00

okay. it looks really gay here..

have cut my hair. though it's not very obvious in the photo.

im rotting already..

2009-12-26T23:02:00.000-08:00

i dont like this holiday. it's pretty wasted.
bangkok trip screwed, christmas's fuck-up, lousy weekend.
damm LOUIS...

but i've quite a list of new year resolution for the 2010. muahahaha

ching! ching! folks =D
-.- mother..

2009-12-22T08:52:00.000-08:00

she said, " life's been nothing but a bitch "

n no matter how hard i pinch myself on the ass, it'll just gonna reminds me how real it had been.

" i reached home realised tt my 4th finger is dyed wit blue n black colours "

2009-12-21T08:19:00.000-08:00

alright tt's a video took months back. i think.

tt was one super duper uper ultra crazy night at kbox in suntec city.

utterly stupid.. idiot.

ha.

n after long, my first baskestball session tomorrow evening, may the weather be good. or i shall swear non stop.

" im always online wit reasons "

2009-12-14T07:50:00.000-08:00

vibe party on the 19th seems so tempting lar.
but one one seems to be interested -.-

the ideas of beer bong and body shots is daaaaaaaaaaaaaaa SEX..
but beer PONG?? wtf!?!? playing wit pingpong balls?
wahahaha.. till then.

btw, anyone interested??

2009-12-13T11:37:00.000-08:00

okay. im failing my exams. mother